How is the weekend already over?!


I really wanted to get on here on Friday night so I could’ve written about the experience when it was still fresh, but I was so exhausted and then Saturday and today were jam packed. So now that I’ve caught my breath, I’ll try and jot down my Friday to today.

First of all, I thought I was about to be late for work because my car’s oil light started yelling at me, so I had to turn around when I was only a couple of blocks away and take my boyfriend’s car to work. Luckily, I was there on time, and as soon as I walked into the office, I barely had enough time to put my purse down before a coworker was whisking me off to the chapel to help assist in a service.

I haven’t worked a service or visitation/viewing or anything yet, so my heart immediately started beating hard. I walk into the chapel and get told that I’m going to have to check on the service every so often for about an hour, and then it would be my job to open the side door (on cue) for the family to circle the casket and exit out the side (they were Hindu and this is a ritual they do).

I immediately thought “I’m going to ruin this”, but I took a breath and made it happen. I sort of thought it was weird that I didn’t stay in the room for the whole service, but we were a little short staffed, and I needed to go around and help out with a bunch of other things. I walked in and out of the chapel for most of the service, and once the eulogies started, I remained in the room and waited for my cue. Once the priest waved me forward, I stood near the front and waited till I had to open the doors.

I think the thing that made me most nervous was missing the cue or doing something wrong, but there was really no way to mess up opening a door when told to. Once I had them open, the family started the recessional, up and around the casket and out the side door to wait for the immediate family in front. Once the immediate family was ready, the funeral director and I were asked to come up and close the casket. After we closed it, the males of the family gathered around the casket and pushed it through the doors where the rest of the mourners were waiting.

I waked ahead of the cortege and made way to the crematory. Once they arrived, the funeral director and I stood on either side of the crematory door and waited for the prayers to be done so we could load the casket into the chamber. It felt so intimate to be surrounded by the whole family (around 50 people in all), and I thought I had it together until the husband went to say a final goodbye. When he went to say his prayer, his voice cracked and he started crying and I almost lost it!

I felt the love and sadness and I had to look away from their crying faces before I started bawling. I think one of the family members caught my eyes when I started to well up. Once we loaded the casket in, they waited for the burners to be up to the right temperature and they started the cremation process. The family loaded out and I had completed my first service.

Once that was over, I was then whisked away to help with a visitation we were having from 5-9pm. Everything went smoothly, not a big crowd came for the visitation, and I ended up chatting with the pastor that was going to help out with the service the next day. He was real nice and was asking me about why I chose this profession. I told him (in as quick of a way as I could), and he told me about when he was a kid, his dad helped with a local mortuary in Mississippi, so he likes to chat with us “morticians”.

I was shown some more things, and was let to do more things than I did on Tuesday, and I’m definitely catching onto the way things work around there. Small things like where certain things are or how they want certain things done will come in due time. Once the family was gone, we finished cleaning and got home later than I wanted to (but that’s the life, right?).

I was so sore and tired by the time I got home, but mostly hungry. I made it a mission to get my boyfriend to go get food with me so we could chat and eat. We got home fairly late, and then Saturday was an all day thing with a 3 year old’s birthday party and hanging with my friend’s that I hadn’t seen in a while, and we ended up staying out till 3 in the morning!

I woke up “early” and ran some errands, got in a little homework, and then headed into work. Today was slow (it’s Sunday), and I was allowed to basically do it all myself. Since I was closing with my friend (who got me the job), and she wants me to be as self sufficient as possible, I basically closed up shop by myself. I did the things I could remember to do, and asked “do (insert thing) now right?”, and told, “yes”, so I figure I’m doing better than they expected me to be doing on my 4th day on the job.

The only part of today that sort of sucked was that we could’ve been out earlier had my coworker actually stepped in and helped do some things, but once I was done with everything, we were waiting on the crematory to be under a certain temperature before we closed that up anyway, so it didn’t matter. We only waited about 15 minutes before it was time to go, and we closed up the gates and I went home.

I just got done eating a late dinner and doing a little bit of homework, and now I think I’m gonna go to bed “early” (it’s 11pm), so I’m not crazy tired for tomorrow. I can’t believe I’m already in the 5th week of school. I should really be getting onto some of the projects and papers that I have due in the next month or two, but we’ll see. I know me, they’ll get put off until I’m rushing to finish them, ’cause that’s just how I roll.

I’ll conclude this long and drawn out post by saying, I really do love what I’m getting into. I can feel it in my bones that this is something that I’ll be good at. I get super tired and sore and come home exhausted, but it feels good. Plus, my new comfy shoes really help out šŸ˜‰


Busy, busy, busy, and it’s only Thursday?


I feel like this week was such a whirlwind, and it’s only Thursday! It’s the first time in a long time that I actually feel worn out (but accomplished!). I started my job on Monday (!), and it was…underwhelming? I don’t mean it in a bad way, but I spent 3 of the 4 hours I was there sitting in a chair, twiddling my thumbs. I signed my paperwork and was given the employee handbook to read. Right there. In the office. *eye roll* No one reads the handbook!

To be fair, my manager’s mother was in the E.R. and ended up having to leave to go pick her up, and then come back to work. The problem was when he told me I was only going to be there for a couple hours, and then sent home, but he forgot about me and left shortly after returning from the E.R. The other girl that was on duty asked me how long I was supposed to be staying, and I told her, “I don’t know, ’cause he just left…so…”. So she sent me home without finishing what she was doing for the night.

Day 2 was much better. I ended up actually getting put to work! I helped shuffle some people around the prep room to make room. I helped file, answer phones, shut down the cemetery, vacuum, etc. etc. (you know, my job). I have my third day tomorrow, and I get to help out with a visitation. It’ll be my first time helping with a real service, so I’m actually kind of nervous!

School was a little harder this week since I’m working 3 days (it’s normally only going to be 2, thank the gods), but I managed to study and take 2 tests and get homework done, so I guess I can’t quit yet šŸ˜‰

Today was an eventful day in the embalming lab too. We come in after the embalming 1 kids raise vessels and proceed to inject and finish the process they started. I was on position 1 which had me doing the mouth closure with needle injector, which I’ve used before, but I was still a little fumbly with it. The nasal aspiration ended up being my main tool today because our case just kept purging! I’ve never seen so much continuously pouring out of the mouth and nose, and then the incisions at both carotids wouldn’t stop filling with fluid! We could barely dry it out enough for us to suture them shut, and ended up having to pack the incisions with cotton at least 7 times.

I feel like I’m getting better at my suturing. The inversion stitch is an amazing one to have in our arsenal, since it makes the incision practically nonexistent, but I’m still struggling with making that one smooth with the skin. I have the baseball stitch down, and I tried my first whip stitch on the radial incision point with success.

I also took the time to catch up with 2 of the girls from the new student orientation to see how their first semester is going. I sat down for a good 15 minutes and chatted with them, answered their questions, and gave them studying advice. They looked a little relieved after talking to me, and I told them to use my knowledge and ask me anything whenever they want. They seemed to appreciate me, so I did my good deed for the day šŸ˜‰

I haven’t had this sense of tired, accomplished, and motivated in a long time. I hope I can keep up the good vibes and continue to fall in love with my career šŸ™‚

Who has 2 thumbs and is newly employed?

this_guyIt’s funny that my journey on here started with my stress over the 2nd semester, and now I’m employed and finishing school. Crazy how time flies!

But to the actual story and reason I’m making a blog entry: It’s official! You’re looking at a newly employed woman! I got the job and celebrated with a short camping trip with a group of my best friends. The second interview was basically, “when can you start?”, and I told them, “not this weekend, but anytime after that”, so I start on Monday (TOMORROW!).

I’m excited to have a job and a little bit of income, but I’m still scared it’s about to make my life a lot more hectic. Maybe all those posts about how this semester still hasn’t become stressful was my subconscious saying, “challenge accepted!”.

794df6b11dc4e780e0a1acc994c605bbThe camping trip was a nice small break in between what is about to be a very hectic 3 months. Got out of class on Friday around noon and headed towards the mountains and tried to soak in as much time as I could being out of cell range and listening to the sounds around me. It’s so calming to get out of the city, and I never truly realize how loud it actually is until I’m out in the middle of nowhere. I love seeing all of the stars out there, and I even got to see the milky way since it was so clear out!

I didn’t want to leave, but alas, school and work now dictate my schedule. I can’t wait to start tomorrow, I’m sure it’s about to be a lot of vacuuming and dusting, but I can’t wait to be paid for it ;)! As for now, I’m going to bed early (for once!) so that I’m not exhausted for tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Employment?! Apprenticeship?! And School?! OH MY!!


I like that this meme has 2 different meanings in this post. One being that I’m in a career that definitely isn’t for everyone. The other is, wait, what’s this? Could it be? Do I have a potential job lined up!? Why yes, yes I do!

A friend of mine, who I met through school, works at a funeral home near me, and they’re looking for night attendants. I went in for an initial interview last Tuesday, and I have a follow up one this Thursday! I’m a little bummed that my second interview is happening after my embalming lab at school, so I can’t go home and shower and change before making an appearance. But they’re a funeral home, they’ve got to be used to it, right? My friend told me after the first interview that word around the office is that I got the job, but have to go through the formalities of this second interview before they make it official.

I can’t wait to be finally working in the field! It’s gonna be nice to be making some money and actually apply what I’ve been learning. I was told that I wouldn’t work more than 3 days while I’m in school, so that’s nice too. I wouldn’t want to work more than that while finishing out this last semester with a full load anyway. Hopefully it’ll be something that I can take to full-time, or at least more than 3 days, when I’m out of school. Gotta make that money! AND! Not only is there the possibility of employment, but they also hinted at my being able to start my embalming apprenticeship! I have to complete 2 years before I can be a licensed embalmer, so that’ll be nice to start ticking off those 100 cases before I’m even a graduate!

Speaking of school, as of today, we’re halfway through the 3rd week. Already taken a couple exams, gotten a BUNCH of projects thrown on my plate, and I still haven’t hit the panic button. I don’t know if I’m just getting used to the stress, or if the semesters are getting easier (*snort* yeah, no), but I have yet to get too stressed out.

This time in the first semester, I was pretty damn nervous and stressed. Once again, I wish I had started this blog back then so I could go back and relive those moments. I sort of see the stress when I go back in my “Timehop” app, which shows me Facebook, Instagram, iPhotos, and Twitter updates from the last 6 or so years. It’s sort of embarrassing to read things I posted on Facebook 6 years ago, but it’s fun to go back and remember my stress! Like today’s post from a year ago was me studying for the first unit exam in anatomy/pathology 1! It seems like IĀ just took that class!

Hopefully, a year from now, I’ll be reading posts about school and it’ll be a distant memory, and I’ll be full-time employee *fingers crossed*! It’s still weird to me that I only have (technically) 3 months left till I graduate and I’ll finally be done with school forever!..Maybe? Baccalaureate? We’ll see. Oh! screen-shot-2016-09-07-at-11-27-11-pmI also got my email that I’m OFFICIALLY on track to graduate!

I’ll definitely post after my interview and how I got the job *wink*, but it’ll probably be after the weekend since we’re getting out of cell range and camping with friends. One last rendezvous with the group before I’m taking multiple exams every week for the next 3 months and don’t have time for relaxation! Oh, there’s that panic.