Once again, I’m slacking. I can’t seem to find the time (or effort) to get on here and jot things down. I didn’t even check, but I’m pretty sure it’s been months since I last posted on here. I will just summarize the last couple of months, and the highs and lows.
We were all geared up and excited for our newest member to join the team. He had been a prep room supervisor since 2001. He had been in the business in some way, shape, or form since 1999. He spoke Spanish (major plus). Most importantly, HE was excited to come on board and learn everything, since he hadn’t worked as many services or met with families.
The day he was supposed to start, he was late, and we were all a little perplexed. Most new employees make it a point to show up early on their first day; maybe he was stuck in traffic? Gave him a call and he says, “Didn’t you check your email?”
Apparently, he emailed us the a noon the previous day to say that his old job basically gave him an “offer he couldn’t refuse”. They created a position for him and paid him more than us, so he wasn’t going to be coming aboard.
We were all disappointed. This was our missing piece. This was the relief my manager and I were looking for. Only being the two of us for the last year is burning us out.
Back to square one.
On a more positive note: families love me. I love working with them too. I was told the other day that I come off very “confident”, and I seem to have a way about me that people think I’ve been doing this for years; not just 1 year. That makes me feel good. Backs me up in thinking this is what I’m supposed to be doing.
This isn’t to say that I don’t doubt myself, or mess up, or have the occasional difficult family, because I do. There’s times when I get done with my day, and I go home and vent about how impossibly difficult people make my job sometimes. That’s a given with any service related job though.
And since I haven’t been on here in a while, I can officially say I’ve been at Chapel of Memories Funeral Home for 1 year. My anniversary was January 31st, and my apprenticeship anniversary was February 21st. In one year I’ve met with many families, and I have embalmed or assisted embalming 76 cases (only 24 more to meet the total needed in the 2 years!). I’m more confident now. I feel comfortable in arrangements, but there’s still the occasional “lemme go ask someone” moments.
With all this hustle and bustle, my anxiety goes along with it. I’ve actually had to break down and get medication for my insomnia and anxiety. I take it on my on-call nights, so I can try and get some restful sleep. I even went to a counseling session (and have another scheduled in another week) to discuss healthy ways of relieving stress. I thought it was going to be a weird session, but I found it to be super helpful, so I’m going to continue it for now. But getting that third person to help us out would really bring down my stress levels too.
I didn’t want to right too much, just a catch up of what I can think of that went down over the last couple months. I really will try and keep this up so the entries aren’t so spaced out, and there’s more of a sense of flow, rather than a block of random time.